You’re only 21, is what I constantly remind myself. I’ve been feeling like I’m a lot older than what I am. Feel like I’m supposed to have it all figured out by now but that’s not the case.
Life is a process.
I love when older women tell me “baby you’re still young, RELAX.” Because I honestly cause myself extra stress trying to keep up with my social clock… or should I say feeling like I have a social clock? It’s draining.
“Social clock- A cultural specific timetable for events to occur like marriage, having children, finishing college etc.”
I’m working on breaking away from that social clock state of mind. No paths are the same. No purpose is the same. I can’t let what society or my family tell me I should be doing stress me out. I don’t want to live it trying to keep up with society’s expectations because at the end of the day it’s my life.
And Ima do what I want to do anyway because that’s just how I am!
Another thing that gets me is that I feel like once I turn 25 I’m old! Idk why I feel like 25 is the deadline for me to have all my shit together. My dad always tells me how at 25 ill just be getting started. I’m shifting my focus though because I know I can only focus on where I’m at now.
I’m working on remaining relaxed in every situation. I’m working on enjoying the moment. It’s my journey so I have to embrace the good as well as the bad.
I also had to accept the fact that starting over is ok! I used to be so afraid of starting over because to me starting over was failure. I felt like Starting over was wasting time but it’s not. Once I accepted the fact that I will fail it was easier for me to start over without beating myself up about it. It’s all part of the process.
When it’s time for me to graduate, I will.
When it’s time for my blog/ business to go to the next level, it will.
When it’s my time to get married, I will.
When it’s time for me to have a kid, I will.
A lot of things I’m not ready for yet and the universe knows that I’m not ready for it which is why it hasn’t happened yet. I know one day I’ll get to where I need to be.
Trust the process.